Refleksi 2025 dan Harapan 2026

Hello everyone! 

Gimana kabarnya?

Balik lagi ke blog ini untuk membuat tulisan refleksi seperti ritual di tahun-tahun sebelumnya. Man, let’s get straight to the takeaway this year. Life hasn't been easy, and I'm glad that I survived. 

Awal tahun ini lumayan oke cuma dinamikanya tidak semulus itu. Hidup tuh emang ada aja naik turunnya. Dari bapak saya ternyata sakit, dan beberapa bulan ke belakang rutin tiap bulan ke rumah sakit buat kontrol. Kerjaan yang enggak ada habisnya. Banyak banget tuntutan. But one thing is for sure: I've finished my UK chapter for good. I attended my graduation ceremony this year to officially close that chapter. It's one of the best chapters in my life, honestly. I got my freedom, lovely people, amazing experiences. What's not to like? Not bad, right? Then I realised that this 'bonus' chapter in my life was temporary. Life still goes on after one chapter ends.

I’m in a pessimistic mode right now. I was optimistic at the beginning of the year but life didn’t go as planned. I’m totally worn out and don't have any more energy to cope with everything. I decided to let things go for good, for the sake of my sanity. Udah terlalu banyak beban dan nggak mungkin bawa semua beban ini ke 2026 2025 part II. Dan buat yang kesekian kalinya naro prioritas diri di nomor sekian. I'm trying to get more comfortable in my own skin, and to be a good friend to myself again.

I'm already thinking about the pressure next year. If I don't put pressure on myself, my environment will - whether it's work pressure or family that keeps hinting at me to find someone and get married. The irony is, I’ve been sitting in limbo for so long. Despite the mutual feelings, the lack of direction led me to decide to walk on my own path. I think I’m not strong enough to wait any longer. Also, I don't think I'll chase clarity. It is what it is. What I have is acceptance, and I’ll keep it as this year’s lesson. The same lesson every year, huh? LOL I really don't have anything to hold on to, and the pressure is always on my plate. Just me, myself, and I :')))

Ga banyak harapan di tahun depan. Rencananya bakal nyobain buat daftar beberapa short course ke Aussie atau pun India, mana ajalah. Dan mungkin ga terlalu ambis juga buat keterima. I just need to put my energy into something. Mungkin bakal coba dinikmati aja prosesnya, at least I'll try. Ini udah versi gw kayak sebelum kuliah pesimis banget wkwkwk

Versi ambisnya mau nyoba buat nulis artikel terkait migrasi atau perbatasan. Mungkin satu atau dua tulisan idk, even writing one feels like a struggle.

Intinya sih bertahan di tahun depan aja udah hebat. Semoga tetap kuat di tahun depan.

Akhir kata, selamat tahun baru semua! All the best for y'all :)